Wednesday, March 30, 2005
another space adventure at 12:19 AM
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Tuesday, March 29, 2005
tired... eyes all painful and itchy.. puffy-fied.. =_________= just took a bath.. late.. cos i just came back at almost midnight.. yes i do have work tomorrow.. but heck.. Went to work this morning.. was shit. aldoh i got to work in the warehouse. with yong hwa~ was talking to him about K (remember him? no.. not keikei.. he's a real live human not many noe..) ... felt so sad.. wanted to cry.. :( and then i remembered asano and really started to tear.. so i faked a yawn... hm... anyway, this time i really wanted to go out with some ppl and just sit and talk... after work, found out on msn that kouji and sher going to have dinner outside so i decided to meet them to hang out abit. Luckily i did.. felt so much better.. hysoka, janys and sho was there as well.. ^_^ talked alot.. and it was fun laughing loudly with them. at least i didnt have to suffer alone or think too much.. did talk about the cutting of our wrist doh.. currently i cld see kouji and janys are having their time. I feel like starting again.. i dunno.. mayb it has actually evolved into fun? wakanai... anyway, didn't know hysoka smokes.. :X haha.. was kinda surprised but not shocked.. anyway, we talked till 11 and left for home.. i just love sitting and slacking at a kopitiam late at night.. too bad i have work later in the morning.. or i'd stay overnight.. sigh. I HATE WORK. but anything for asano. o yea.. will be going to pierce my lip with janys in june~ ^_^ only prob is.. i wanna cos yukke at j-fest.. and-he-doesn't-have-piercings. LOLX. owell.. ill go find transparent ones.. zzz.. nitey~
another space adventure at 12:12 AM
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Sunday, March 27, 2005
listening to "pieces" by l'arc..so sad.. this song.. always makes me feel depressed aldoh ken's guitar is... \(^0^)/.. lolx...anyway, i held an sd13 for the first time today! It was sher's boy, sho. It made my bond and longing for asano grow stronger... i really need him.me and my sis met sher and simmie at the mrt station before heading off to domuya together. We tot we were just gonna follow simmie to go pay for her boy when candy (the store owner) told us that she's got him there. We practically screamed and wooped our heads off. He's so pretty... everyone was so happy with their boys and i felt kinda.. sad.. I wanted to cry... i wanted asano so badly.. but i told myself that its only a month or so away.. just work abit longer and don't lose hope... hope i can work at least two weeks more.. really really am getting sick of the ppl there. Them and their stupid jokes. Sometimes they really don't know tt they hurt ppl with the things from their filty mouth.well.. we stayed at domuya for a few hours before heading off to dhoby ghaut.. when we were gonna leave, there was this lady crying over her defective dolpa limited cyndy... :( so sad.. i feel her pain.. Went to watch the SPONGE BOB SQUAREPANTS MOVIE~! lolx.. its really really hilarious.. aldoh i'd only give it 3 stars personally.. it even has david hasselhoff in it.. XD and... patrick in fishnets.. =_=''' my sis, simmie and sher were all watching with their boys.. they had so much fun.. we all took so many funny pics and all.. sigh..I really really really love asano with all my heart.. I'll just have to continue dreaming of him, hold him in my dreams, think of him while working.. until the day he resides in my arms.. T___T.. as for now. im tired and exhausted.. i guess ill catch some zzz soon... nite.
another space adventure at 10:52 PM
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Saturday, March 26, 2005
listening to "futa" by muccFlunctuating mood today. Due to the rain... on and off and on and off and on and off... didn't go anywhere. Procrastination.... :(sigh.. just remembered i took lots of pics at the sky garden yesterday... the "lovers" area... sheesh.. but me, my sis and chunz went there to sit and talk. don't think we did talk much.. more like play with the toys we had on hand. it was kinda nice though... but it makes you feel left out.. nah.. i dun think we need a relationship tt bad.. but wouldnt it be nice? haha...now listening to "kumo no ito" by pierrot... fanfic third chapter wrote half way. hm... i keep thinking today is a sunday.. its only a sat though.. and tomorrow we'll all be meeting at 1130 to go to domuya and then out with our boys and girls and what not. sheril's bringing her boy sho, my sis bringing her boy kei, im bringing my... er... zombie baby boy living dead doll thing- vinny.. @_@ haha.. just so he can meet sho. I've been meaning to find someone to sit with at a comfy cafe to just talk and slack.. but it seems like nobody wants to! =_= owell... monday it'll be back to work.. lets see.. will get my pay next next friday. ... tt means i gotta wait till... the 23rd of next month to get asano... T_____T im gonna die soon... my boy.... i want my boy...*mumbles mumbles*
another space adventure at 7:45 PM
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listening to "inner child" by the flare.Just felt like writing... hrm...just had quite a sudden moodswing.. feel so sad tt asano is so far.. and everybody else seem to be getting their dolls pretty soon. and.. well.. moping in the shallow pit over why ppl can spend money without working for it. and i mean lots of money. :(and.. also.. how sometimes, you just don't feel right with ur "close" friends anymore. You feel they betray you and they hide things from you. Its not nice..rite now.. the amount of gd friends i can count is only a handful.. less than a hand even. maybe the reason i can't wait to step into a nafa class room for the first time is because i want to meet new ppl.. to present myself an opportunity to start over. perhaps? humans are becoming more and more hard to predict.why do i love dolls so much? when ppl first hear the price of my beloveds, they'll say things like "omfg.. ur crazy.. shuddup.." but they never stop and think.. how bout the stuff i buy? lets say u love wang lee hom or some other artist alot.. don't u go spend tons and tons of money on their goods? and even worse.. write fanmail over and over again just to get a reply that says "thx to the fans who wrote in to me" on the website. sheesh. there was a hole in my heart quite a long time ago.. feeling that i needed a companion of some sort.. bf? haha.. fat hope. when i saw asano a few yrs ago tt hole was filled up a little cos i had hope for getting him.. then another bit was filled up when yuki was bot.. jus now.. when my ldds and pinky was bot, i felt the hole close leaving a much smaller hole compared to the last. it was a feeling of relieve.. and constant knowing tt at least you could trust them! ask simmie.. she noes tt abt her pinky.. dubbed Ki-chan. holding a violin and looking down at her from the top of her cpu. DANG. i probably wrote too much. shld go write my fic finish before chunz starts complaining.
another space adventure at 2:58 AM
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listening to "padi bon mahe" by orange rangeThis song is so... chanting. SHO CUTE. lolz.. its from my sister's -just bot- orange range album titled musiQ.Interesting.. its like those red indians chanting some dunno what... =v= Anywayyyyyy.... Watched swing girls with my sis and simmie and laughed like a lunatic! I rate it FOUR and a HALF stars~~ :D you guys hafta hafta hafta watch. Next show on my list to watch is install~ after tt, walked to mise.. i bot some stuff and my sis bot ALOT of stuff. chunz came after tt when simmie had to leave.. o yea.. forgot.. before tt simmie and i bot Pinkys!! FINALLY... i've been meaning to buy it since a few months ago... haha.. ^_^I got the vampy one with fangs and a devil lunch box.. simmie bot the violinist one... wee... took some pics..after tt, my sis, me and chunz walked to kino.. browse arnd, bot fruits.. Im waiting for tune.. T__T its coming out arnd next month.. left for food.. bot sushi~ muahahhaa.. loads of sake sushi!! then walked arnd somemore, stopped at leslie kee's photo meets fashion exibit at wisma before leaving for wheelock place. WHERE I FOUND TRUE HAPPINESS.. lolx.. went to see the photo exhibit "flowers by araki" at the epson gallery. then after tt, we went to dolls inc.. and.. and.. and.. I bot my current happiness.. A vincent vaude living dead doll!!! @___@ pretty-ness~ o and also the mini version of doctor dedwin and nurse necro. MY BELOVEDS... *hearts* so happy~ and also.. sho has arrived for sheril!! tts great~ and farrah is ordering a luts kid delf ttori as well.. which means.. more dolls! yea.. man.. im going doll mad.. gonna go make site for my current lovelys soon~ *grins madly*vincent vaude is named vinnie by me while the doctor and nurse will be dubbed doc and nec for short.. o.. and my pinky also has a name! its named bite... dubbed by chunz.. lolx. also....... NOT forgetting my first purchase which was my beloved blythe~ yuki~ she's asleep already.. but she's not forgotten. ^_^ I've gotten my dad to give me space in his cupboard so i can display them. Finally... :Pgotta get acrylis~~~~okok.. im getting sleepy reading my own writing.. zzz
another space adventure at 12:36 AM
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Thursday, March 24, 2005
listening to "takeover" by ryohei yamamotoXDDD tomorrow ish Good Friday ie. Public holiday!! yay~~hm... anywoo.. i got my pay yesterday.. (^_^)v on my way to asano~ wee. just two more weeks or more. :D can't wait.. speaking of which.. i can't wait for this sunday. Simmie is getting the limited asexual tsubaki. yea! with a very very long name.. I tot of a nick for it.. luz or LUST. lolx...suits simmie just fine. XP *ducks*i wanna go out take piccies... tmr gonna go out with my sis.. forgot wat we're supposed to do.. er... no idea.. haha.. do u guys find me draggy..? I always seem to want to say lots.. i just can't find wat i want to write out... EH.. bad english... damn.. working in a chinese and malay environment just makes my english go down the hole of doom in the toilet bowl on its way to the sewage. er... rite.. NAFA NAFA NAFA.. There is just so many things overwhelming me with happy tots. CEPT work. but heck. im gonna think HAPPY TOTS. happy tots happy tots happy tots..
another space adventure at 6:39 PM
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Monday, March 21, 2005
All i need is my colorsplash, polaroids, zen micro and Asano. ^___^lol~ i got a zen micro yesterday!!!... O.. the gdness of working! i treated my family to lunch as well (100 bucks...)... but tts another story... now i can hear my songs whereever i go~ since i have about three thousand plus songs already. Now i have to REstart saving for asano again.. sigh.. but I think, if all goes well, i'll be able to get him next month. YAY~ my boy my boy my boy~ah~ lifes great when u have all the stuff u wanted for so long.. lets see.. what else do i really want? just that bag from blood bros and more tees and pants.. (if i can find size tt is... T_T) ... O yea.. i want a pair of double decks~ :D wah.. but priority now is very high on Asano's side. *shakes with excitement*wee... o yea.. finally bot polaroid 500 film for my joycam. gonna go on a shooting spree one of these days.. sat or sunday perhaps.anyone wanna bring their cam and join me?
another space adventure at 5:53 PM
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Sunday, March 20, 2005
listening to "The cape of storms ~last quarter mix~" by hydeI CRIED LIKE A SCHOOL GIRL. T________Tjust watched finish 『下弦の月～ラスト・クォーター』 or Kagen no tsuki ~Last Quarter~.It is the best movie yet. And also.. i must comment.. hyde's best performance. i wish someone wld die for me. And that i'd have someone i'd die for. The cape of storms.So where do I sail? A ship losing control My cries swallowed up, lost in the raging sea
So where has love gone? Will I ever reach it? The Cape of Storms echoes the pain I feel inside
You'll never notice The colour of sin Just as the storm clouds closes in It's dark
Here in the shadows I am pursued Until the ends of the earth Embraced
The ghost ship wanders far For there is no guiding star And this treasure has no meaning anymore
So where do I sail? A ship losing control My cries swallowed up, lost in the raging sea
So where has love gone? Will I ever reach it? The Cape of Storms echoes the pain I feel inside
You know completely The taste of sin Melting sweet in your mouth Like chocolate A moment of pleasure You are fulfilled But every dream has its time To die
The ghost ship wanders far For there is no guiding star And this treasure has no meaning anymore
Will this be my fate? So where do I sail? A ship losing control My cries swallowed up, lost in the raging sea
So where has love gone? Will I ever reach it? The Cape of Storms echoes the pain I feel inside
another space adventure at 4:14 AM
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listening to "anata no tame no kono inochi" by gazette.Wowee. I spent 200 bucks today... =____= crap. all my hard earned savings gone... but for a gd cause! i bot myself a.... *drum roll please*.... COLORSPLASH!!! Yea~ and fools mate and kera. colorsplash colorsplash colorsplash colorsplash colorsplash.i wanted a lomo cam for four yrs already.... wow.. eversince clarence tot me all abt LOMO. *kowtows to clarence whereever u are..*and i finally own one. i took pics straight after buying it.. but I have yet to see the outcome of my first lomos.. ooo.. cant wait!!! went out with chunyi and my sis today.. finally got a chance to after so long. went to kino and far east... the usual.. ate quite alot too... O_O no night shift today and tomorrow.. not sure bout monday. ah well...
another space adventure at 12:40 AM
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Friday, March 18, 2005
listening to "harajuku girls" by gwen stefanie.ahaha.. i like this song~ Its like naming the fashion scene's biggest names and styles and what not.. anyhoo. I GOT INTO NAFA!!!!!!!!!! ^____^ Im so HAPPY!!! got the letter about two days ago... all i have to do now is to go pay the school fees and its HELLO SCHOOL and BYE BYE WORK! :D yay~there's so many things i wanna do with u guys before school starts~ :( too bad everyone's just too busy at the moment. like me... i just got back from night shift.. gonna go sleep soon.. damn tiring.. and according to alot of ppl, my black eye wrinkles are stark obvious. ARGGGGG... shit. now im really a panda... haa. o damn.. my eyes are closing.. i shall go sleep.
another space adventure at 8:22 AM
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Wednesday, March 16, 2005
ARGGGG... me as a prince of gothic? =___=''' lolx.. janys just told me they made me prince of gothic in the friendster account of 'model of gothic'. erm.. we both feel odd abt it. haha.. Not so much an honour.. but also sort of an embarassment as well? *shrugs*anyway, night shift still sucks.. but money is well earned.. seems tt night shift is paying more. so i will have to try to stick with it for just another 5 nights.. TRY to.. Will be quitting end of the month i think. and shld be able to get asano and a colorsplash next month. XD yay~! As for now.. just "ren" abit..listening to "gekka no yasoukyoku" by malice mizer... feel the need to move and dance like mana... O_osigh.. the funniest things just has to happen to me.. there's a butch at work who asked me if im straight or crooked and concluded that im Bi cos i like gay guys. HA. and i swear the other butch stared at my chest area to see if i bind. *shakes head*sigh...
another space adventure at 4:01 PM
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Tuesday, March 15, 2005
WORK NIGHT SHIFT just now....so sleepy just now.. but now.. i feel awake. =_= odd... ill sleep later of cos.. night shift isnt tt bad after all.. just that i really really have nothing to do so i end up staring at ppl and mumbling to myself. er... yup. tts alll...
another space adventure at 8:56 AM
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Monday, March 14, 2005
listening to "beautiful ones" by suede. HAPPY WHITE DAY! wish i got someone to give white day present to... :(I CANNOT SLEEP. its 0718hrs... I have to go to work later at 1930hrs... Im doomed... not enuf sleep.. owell.. just have to try and slog today over with.*sings* here they comeeee... the beautiful onesssss...sigh... damn work. I dont care. im quitting when i get the news tt im in nafa. IF im in nafa in the first place.. I shld enjoy life then. now to blog bout yesterday.. was quite fun. Went to meet the gang.. and went to ACM for gig and stuff after we went to liang court for lunch. There was kouji, sher, me, my sis, rachel, tara, janys and kaori. Had a bunch of laughs... then when we were at acm, lgf was playing. :D hee.. got to see chun's incredible flying V. ooo... and they were facinated by keikei... lol.. esp emi.. hope the pics are up.. Then there was the anime stuff downstairs.. so went down and played some natsu matsuri type games like those balloon yoyo and paper net games.. aldoh we all cheated since it was almost time to close. And totchi and himu was there! haha.. lots of yaoi talk ensued... and .. ALOT of touching...arnd seven, my sis had to go return harriet's bass to her so we all went to city hall mrt. on the way there we walked through the cathedral aldoh ppl were staring and they were having a service.. == lol... went off to raffles city after rach left. Then tara went off... and we went to bk to sit. THE SERVICE SUCKS. I spilled my drink and the supervisor shouted SHIT! in front of my face... plus the person cleaning up said to me "If the drink kena the machine (cash register) how? u pay ar?" WHAT THE FUCK. I know everybody has had a rough day but... WHAT THE FUCK rite? I cldnt be bothered to say sorry.. just left the counter.Spoiled my mood.. and really din want to go home so me, my sis, totchi and himu left to go suntec to see the it fair.. too bad me and my sis cldnt go in.. but totchi and himu did manage to go in claiming they were looking for someone.. lol.. damn. I wanted to get a rmmc reader... owell.then we went back to the station.. they felt like going to the loo.. so we waited with totchi's hammy. and when the two guys came out, the four of us stood one side and just started chatting away... even sat down for awhile... chatted for about an hour.. and they promised to ask us out another day.. since its been so long.. haha.. and we all went home at about 1 min to 11. lol.. so it was abt 12 before we actually had dinner.TTS ALL. but it was none the less, the most contact with the outside world i had this entire month other than when i go to work. I wanted to stay out later to make the best of the rest day i got. but... owell, okay...
another space adventure at 7:18 AM
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Sunday, March 13, 2005
listening to my mostest favouritest song in the worlddddddd. Au revoir by malice mizer.arrrrr.... its been so long since i heard the whole song properly. Never had the time to sit and just listen... its a sunday! and i took off from work.. but from tomorrow, ill be working night shift. :( Im depressed.. hate being alone.anyway, later me and gang will be going to liang court for lunch and stuff. after tt, to the jrock gig~ woot. too bad i have no costume. :( another sad point. HOW THE HELL DO I GET ENUF $$ AND TIME. haiz.... work is stealing my life.. I keep telling myself.. I NEVER want to have a job like tt ever again in my life. I hope when i graduate from where ever i graduate this time, I can get a proper job as a photographer or something related to the design field.. I really feel an urge to study fashion... =__= haha... I think i wrote tt lots of times...damn.. so tired.....
another space adventure at 7:12 AM
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Friday, March 11, 2005
Listening to "dancing in the moonlight" by toploader..... wee.....Daamnnn... i feel so tired.. Today has got to be the most tiring day i ever had at work. What with the new guy i have to look after.. and also some new system... ARG. Damn the work... but i want the money so badly. grr... and im just waiting for confirmation that im accepted into nafa before quitting. hm.. sigh...so tired.....tired...........zzz...anyway, next week ill be doing night shift. which means.. my biological clock will be upside down for a week. I hope i don't fall ill... all i noe is... during night shift, i can use the comp and also its not tt stressful. oh wait.. one more thing... $cha-ching$.. hahaha... more cash too. i need my dollfie so badly... kimi wa inaikaaa......sigh. I guess not many ppl understand. ARGGGGGGGGGG...... i wish im at the bbq rite now. this sucks. Happy birthday ambo~ :)
another space adventure at 11:23 PM
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Monday, March 07, 2005
listening to "Urei" by kagrra, Went to nafa today. took half a day off work. WOWEE. hahahaa... today was supposed to be for verification only.. who wld have known that they'd hold the interview today directly after verification.... ^___^ luckily i bot my portfolio along... and well.. The lecturer is going to recommend me and my sis into the school!!!! *DANCES* im so glad~~~ yay-ness! lolx... Bot something for rachel as an early birthday pressie.. ahhaa.. hope she likes it.. its a hotei towel. did i get tt rite? the grp with don atobe in it... yar... no idea.. just tot she'd love it to death. Went to sunshine plaza u see.. saw so many nice stuff.. including that tree making shop... its... interesting. lol.. ar.... thinking.. NAFA NAFA NAFA NAFA.... @___________@*foams in mouth*okok.. gtg give rach her pressie and also go for a walk with her downstairs.. and my sis too of cos. XP
another space adventure at 8:22 PM
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Sunday, March 06, 2005
Listening to "Freestyler" by bomfunk Mc. (don't ask... =_=)WORK WORK WORK. man... saturday and sunday also work... owell.. but.. its ok. It means I got more pay. :psigh... now im listening to "bed of roses" by bon jovi... O_OHina matsuri celebration on thursday with the gang was great. We had so much fun.. too bad simmie and kaori couldn't come.. went home quite late. bout 11 plus. and.. well, Our dollies and soft toys.. haha... dunno what to say... shows we never grew up.. lolx.. ^____^im still waiting for my asano....... ASANO...... dammit.tomorrow, im taking half day off. Have to go to nafa to verify some stuff... ARG.... NO MONEY........ ARGGGGGG............*FOAMS IN MOUTH*excuse the random outburst...
another space adventure at 9:14 PM
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Thursday, March 03, 2005
listening to "Better be home soon" by crowded houseIts so gd to listen to this song and the rain outside... haha... Half day at work today! Yay~ took half day cos today is hina matsuri and we'll be celebrating later. ^_^ cant wait. BORING. ok.. i think i go watch dollmaster again and wait for the rain to stop. once it stops, im going to nafa and then to liang court. Feel like making a hina matsuri card for domuya... ahaha..perhaps.. ^_^RAIN RAIN RAIN~ I LOVE RAIN~~~~~~~~~~*twirl*
another space adventure at 1:51 PM
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Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Listening to "hey now (Don't dream its over)" by crowded house
What a fitting song title... sigh...
Its been a superrrrrrrr long time since i had my girly rushes squealing over cute guys and all... not that i want to do that but i can't miss it. Cos well, I have no one to squeal over. haha.... guys nowadays. boring shit. and sides, girls nowadays... slutty asses. :(
Wat the hell... who cares abt that. The only interest in me rite now is whether i can get into NAFA!! @_________@
*rolls arnd on floor*
I hate work.
*foams in mouth*
My whole body stings... stupid medicine not working!!!
\(TOT)/
another space adventure at 9:31 AM
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