listening to "Kiss and control" by A.F.I

ok.. today was a pretty strange day... for taking photos.. i finally bought the pig's heart to take photo of.. and thanks to my sister's classmate's (sebastian!) help, i was able to get what i want. yay.. cant believe my classmates are all sissies.. @_@ haha.. nah.. u noe im only joking.. but what was the funniest.. was francis.. my god... cant believe a grown man like him is scared of a mere animal organ. ha!..

anyway, at least i got something done..
nowadays i feel that i can never get things done.. i'd either procrastinate or think of something to get out of it.. blah. i dont know whats wrong with me..

and.. next week's already the assessment.. fuck! sigh..

o yea.. ytd, i went to the 1 dollar book shop and got two books.. one is philedelphia (as in the movie..) and one is a book called carp fishing on valium.. haha.. :)

ok... so my life is a bore... blah.. go on.. go on.. nothing else to read now.

listening to "who needs love" by razorlight

this past few months... no.. this past few years has been so damn difficult. but this month, its finally looking up for me.. well.. at least a little bit..

and i feel so tired.. enough of being good. enough of being tolerant. sheesh.

im supposed to go to sch but i dont want to. I have not much to print and i dont wanna see the lecturer's faces.. blah. but i'll still go later on.. to do my other work. arg. i feel extremely brain dead right now.

wanna move somewhere else... @_@

ugh.. cant blog no more..

quizzes. jus cos imma bored...

something i stole from tara's blog..

Myself
001. Real Name: Geraldine ang
002. Nickname: tawn, tan, geri, jelly belly, gerry berry, ger, g.ang, gee
003. Single or taken: single...
004. Zodiac Sign: saggitaurus
005. Male or Female: female.
006. Elementary School: katong convent primary
008. How many buddies on your list: lets see.. wait.. what list?
009. friendster name: tawn
010. Occupation: photographer, art sch student
011. Hair Color: currently Black
012. Hair long or short: mid
013. Best feature: er.. none.. perhaps my lip piercing? lol.
014. Eye Color: dark brown.
015. Are you health freak: not at all
016. Height: 171cm.
017. Do you have a crush on someone: not right now. unless u count the various celebrities.
018. Do you like yourself: no..
019. Braces: nope.
020. Think you're awesome: er.. nah.. awesome in my photography! :D
021. Piercings: one side lip.. snake bites to come and most prob a bridge. two on left ear and one on right.
022. Tattoo: none as of yet.
023. Surgery: loads.. i was a sick child.
024. First thing you did today: rub my eyes
025. First piercing: er.. ear piercing in primary 6? yepyep
026. First best friend: hm.. candice, pooja, caroline and simmie
027. First Award: hm.. if i remember correctly... er.. first price for my class sports day novelty race.
028. First Sport: cycling!!!
029. First pet: caramel... T_T i loved her..
030. First vacation: thailand of cos.
031. First Concert: not sure man.. but the recent and best ive been to is and was PLACEBO!
032. First love: music!

Favorites
033. movie: woah! too many to name.. but top few wld have to be Velvet Goldmine, Bang Bang You're Dead, I AM SAM, amelie, pianist, children of heaven, stand by me and beautiful thing!! AND MORE MORE MORE.
034. song: hm.. one of my favs is twenty years by placebo
035. Color: red black orange purple
036. Music: too many genres to list.. wanna noe? go check out my friendster.
037. Season: hm.. prob autumn when everything's falling and red and lovely.
038. Food: I LIVE TO EAT!! lol.. everything i guess..
039. Drink: ice cold water
040. Body part not on the face: nil.
041. Cartoon: bobby's world
042. piece of clothing: er.. tees?
043. Brand Of Clothing: used to be h.naoto.. now its anything at all..
044. Thing you sleep with: three pillows, a bolster, my tortoise soft toy, a mini bolster.. and lots of tissue... (i sneeze alot..)
045. Favorite School: nafa!
046. Favorite Animal: hamsters
047. Favorite Book: danny the champion of the world by roald dahl and the greatest of marlys by lynda barry
048. Favorite Magazine: LOADS!

049. I'm Eating: koropok
050. I'm drinking: water
051. I'm about to: watch something
052. Listening to: across the universe by fiona apple
053. Waiting for: daylight to hit
054. Thinking of: emotions
055. Doing before this survey: other quizzes
056. Watching: nothing yet
057. Wearing: home clothes

Your Future
058. Where do you see yourself in 5 years: a successful advant garde fashion,fine arts and rock photographer.
059. Kids: see if i can even get a partner first.
060. Want to be Married: i guess so?
061. Career in Mind: photographer

Which is better with the Opposite Gender
062. Lips or Eyes: eyes.
063. Hugs or Kisses: hugs, they mean more.. kisses cld just be of lust
064. Shorter or Taller: def taller than i am
065. Romantic or Spontaneous: romantic
066. Nice stomach or nice arms: er... if i REALLY had to choose, it'd be stomach
067. Sensitive or Loud: sensitive and emotional
068. Hook-up or Relationship: relationship.
069. Sweet or Caring: BOTH!
070. Trouble Maker or Hesitant: trouble maker!

Have you ever
071. Kissed a Stranger: hm.. i dont remember.
072. Drank bubbles: yes.. ew
073. Lost glasses/contacts: yep
081. Ran away from home: i think so.. or maybe not?
082. Broken a bone: nope.
083. Got an X-ray: plenty..
084. Broken someones Heart: no..
086. Turned Someone Down: no..
087. Cried When Someone died: too many times.
088. Cried at school: too many times.. Just too many times...

Do You Believe In
089. God: perhaps. i do actually.. but im starting to get skeptical
090. Miracles: yes.
091. Love at first sight: hm.. tt wld just be an infatuation.. or puppy love.
093. Aliens: YES!
094. Magic: yes.
095. Heaven: of cos..
096. Santa Claus: nope.
097. Sex on the first date: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
098. Kissing on the first date: depends...
099. Angels: i dont noe

Answer Truthfully
100. Is there someone You Want to be with right now?: yes

You scored as Goth. Your A Goth! Goth 70% Rocker, Mosher 60% Emo 60% Trendy 55% Prepy 30% Chav, Townie, Rude Boy, Ned, Kev 30% Skater 20% What Group Are You? Chav, Rocker, Skater, Emo, Goth, Trendy, Prepy Ect created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Yes, you are depressed. Yes, you are depressed 75% Contented 63% No, you're not depressed 28% THE ULTIMATE DEPRESSION TEST created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Loner. Loner 100% Goth 81% Punk/Rebel 63% Drama nerd 56% Stoner 50% Ghetto gangsta 44% Geek 31% Prep/Jock/Cheerleader 13% What's Your High School Stereotype? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as classic rock. classic rock 70% Emo 65% Indie 65% grunge 60% industrial 50% Punk 50% metal 50% ska 50% mainstream rock 50% reggae 45% country 30% Pop Punk 25% Pop 15% rap 0% what breed of music are you? created with QuizFarm.com

listening to "let it go" by Blue October.

today is... such a strange day. strange but good.

i got my pay two days ago and banked it in ytd.. so i got my 50mm lens today! FINALLY!!! :) yes!!!! only thing is.. it becomes an 80mm lens when mounted on my 350D.. haha.. but its a f1.8 lens so obviously im happy!! YAY~

haha.. took me long enough.

o and me and my sis followed bernard to the old nafa to take pics for his self portrait. i can feel his story behind the pictures.. and im very proud of him.. for being so brave to show how he feels. *thumbs up*

the strangest strangest thing is... erm.. well, i got a call from noise singapore and the lady said "congratulations! your work has been chosen!!"... and i just said "What? Really?"... lol.. i guess i was too shocked. wow. my work? tts just surreal...

feels strange. hm...

so i gotta go submit the photo to them tomorrow. cool.

im finally going somewhere. thank you lord.

i almost gave up.. phew..

listening to "The fantasy" by 30stm

ytd, i went to the flea market at far east sq n china sq because i needed to collect my artwork back.. so i just dropped by the flea markets as well.. didnt buy much.. was contemplating lots of cool retro things.. i have my eyes on the view master.. i have reserved it and am going back next week! :D i just bot this really cute pencil sharperner in the shape of a shrimp. haha. and also a cool 110 coin holder that doubles as a micro 110 film camera when the coin part is taken out! HOW COOL IS THAT? lol.

as for today, i didnt really do much. went to sch as usual.. and then got soaked going to peninsula cos of the heavy rain.. got photo paper.. went to look arnd adelphi and reserved a 50mm lens! FINALLY. hopefully i can get my pay by this week. anyhoo, went arnd funan after that.. nothing much.

o ya.. saw francis at the specs shop in adelphi.. i want to get my specs from there.. once they reopen.. i shld start saving now.

had a lot of calls from francis today.. haha.. funny how long it takes for us to contact one another... cos we kept calling at the same time.. and then it happened to my sis and i as well.. i think we were calling at the same time too... i hate the phone im using now.. boo.. i need a new phone.. :(

sigh.

i cut myself a little too deep today.. haha.. asked my sis to pass me a plaster.. and i asked her if she wanted to see.. and she said "no.. i know its precious to you."... lol.. and then i realized.. how true that was. i guess she's right.. i only show it to ppl i trust.. and thats cos its too precious to flaunt.

shrug..

listening to RHCP's greatest hits being played in the living room by my sis. :3

today's my grandma's death anniversary. i love her. i miss her real bad too. its been 7 yrs now. lifes just not the same anymore.

listening to "strange" by the feeling. (i am absolutely in love with this song at the moment..)

sigh.. its been a tough week. but today was pretty fun. finally went out shooting again with francis and my classmates.

hm.. it wasnt much but we all had fun.. we all went to macs for breakfast first then went to basheer (the graphic bookstore) and francis bot me a book! :D of cos i gotta pay him back later on but dunno when.. ;) haha..

then we went to the national library to see the world press photos of 2006. just absolutely amazing but really really depressing.. i dont know how any photographer can actually stand being there in the midst of all these things happening... and not flinch. i'd become suicidal and fall into an even worse depression.. just looking at the photos made me want to cry and scream and whatnot.. i dont think i know how lucky i am to be here. even diego cried when he saw the picture of the small boy with the amputated arm... his father was holding him tight and he was crying.. it was just so painful..

sigh.. anyway, we went to a few of the biennale sites today including the wonderful wonderful installation at sculpture sq... its also very depressing but scarier this time.. the installation featured a short video clip and a huge amount of sculpted objects broken on the floor.. it was to portray the destruction brought about by technology and abt whether staying in space will be the last of the human race.. freaking.. scary.

owell..
i dunno bout everyone but i feel depressed.

ar well.. toodles.. meanwhile, ponder the lyrics~

Don't you dig this life
They call the meek
You whose feet are on the ground
And if you get too high
What goes around comes around
And brings you down
Cause people gonna see you
How they wanna see you
People gonna rate you
People gonna hate you
People gonna shove you
People gonna love you
People gonna do whatever
Makes them feel they own you better

Cause everyone knows we're strange
So why do you feel ashamed
Baby
Everyone knows we're different
So why do you feel ashamed
We love you all the same

That's why
Cause if you feel it
And if you mean it
Don't apologize
And you'll be just fine
Cause all they ever need is what you'll give them
Is what you're given
They only put you down if you give them permission

listening to "in the morning" by Razorlight

been listening to razorlight and the feeling alot lately. awesome! i just love music that make me feel like im back in the past.. razorlight brings a mixture of 50s, 60s and 70s while the feeling brings me back to the 60s and 70s. wonderful..

the past few days, ive been helping francis with alot of the technical stuff for our studios and darkroom.. he treated me and alison to lunch today.. haha.. how nice. and we also talked abt alot alot of crap together..

anyway, ive gotta go back to the work place to get my pay from michelle... sigh.. i shld go soon before i forget... i really need the cash. my specs broke and i dont want to get any of those cheapo plastic specs.. (uber ugly..) and plus, im dying for my 50mm lens. ARG. and dying for my piercing as well.. grr..

recently, ive been feeling so drained.. esp ytd.. me and diego kept falling asleep everywhere we went.. we slept in the darkroom and in the comp lab... just cldnt help it.. and then i fell asleep once i went home after i ate dinner... just zonked out for a few hours before my sis woke me up to watch grey's anatomy.. hmp..

im not only drained in energy but i cant think either.. its like so difficult to do my homework.. and i need to go out to shoot as well.. but i just cant.

wats happening to me?

listening to "who needs love" by razorlight

yesterday, i went to orchard with my sis to shop for a bag... cos i desperately need one.. sadly, instead of that, i went to kino and borders as usual.. and bot many many reading materials.. haha.. gosh. i bot SQ21! the book about singapore queers in the 21st century. :) and also kerrang and AP... (i cant help it!!) eventhough that money wasnt supposed to be used... ARG...

alright alright.. anyway, heeren looks different now.. or mayb its been too long since ive been there. owell..

o and sch was boring ytd.. andrew left.. :( our dear tech officer is gone! and we had to help francis with the stock taking.. but tt was ok.. at least now i noe where has what.. and wat lights and stuff we have in our sch. cool..

as for today.. its clean up day! im finally gonna clean my room.. hopefully... @_@